Living

The OCD part of me doesn't like these big gaps between journal posts. But I realized yesterday that since so much of this season of my life is experiencing the small and simple joys of life, there's not much to write about... I'm ok with that. For the moments that can be captured I have Instagram. For everything else, I just have joy!

There is a recent thought that I do want document though. (Thanks Rach Anne for helping me talk it out! XOXO)

Lead vs. Follow
House of Israel vs. Gentiles

I want to lead together when HoI-facing.
I want to follow when Gentiles-facing.

The Moral Force of Women
A Plea to My Sisters
It Is Not Good for Man or Woman to Be Alone
How Can I Become the Woman of Whom I Dream?
Turn on Your Light



Flow

Ether 2

6 And it came to pass that they did travel in the wilderness, and did build barges, in which they did cross many waters, being directed continually by the hand of the Lord.

16 And the Lord said: Go to work and build, after the manner of barges which ye have hitherto built. And it came to pass that the brother of Jared did go to work, and also his brethren, and built barges after the manner which they had built, according to the instructions of the Lord. And they were small, and they were light upon the water, even like unto the lightness of a fowl upon the water.

 17 And they were built after a manner that they were exceedingly tight, even that they would hold water like unto a dish; and the bottom thereof was tight like unto a dish; and the sides thereof were tight like unto a dish; and the ends thereof were peaked; and the top thereof was tight like unto a dish; and the length thereof was the length of a tree; and the door thereof, when it was shut, was tight like unto a dish.

Ether 6

4 And it came to pass that when they had prepared all manner of food, that thereby they might subsist upon the water, and also food for their flocks and herds, and whatsoever beast or animal or fowl that they should carry with them—and it came to pass that when they had done all these things they got aboard of their vessels or barges, and set forth into the sea, commending themselves unto the Lord their God.

 5 And it came to pass that the Lord God caused that there should be a furious wind blow upon the face of the waters, towards the promised land; and thus they were tossed upon the waves of the sea before the wind.

 6 And it came to pass that they were many times buried in the depths of the sea, because of the mountain waves which broke upon them, and also the great and terrible tempests which were caused by the fierceness of the wind.

 7 And it came to pass that when they were buried in the deep there was no water that could hurt them, their vessels being tight like unto a dish, and also they were tight like unto the bark of Noah; therefore when they were encompassed about by many waters they did cry unto the Lord, and he did bring them forth again upon the top of the waters.

 8 And it came to pass that the wind did never cease to blow towards the promised land while they were upon the waters; and thus they were driven forth before the wind.

Small, Simple, Steady

Either I'm super slow or I'm set on scaling the highest of mountains. Or both. #facepalm Thankfully, God's willing to work with it. He chunks it into small, bite size pieces. And then just asks me to keep at it and stay diligent. I can't always see the progress cause it's so incremental. But when I've collected enough small steps to see some kind of improvement, it always gives me warm and fuzzies.

Like this video. And being able to understand! *insert goofy smiley face* #itsthesimplethings

The Goodness of God

One of my favorite things in this whole entire universe is seeing the goodness of God in the lives of those I love.

I was super tired when I got home from work yesterday which led to a later nap and an even later bed time. Since I lied restlessly awake, I decided to catch up on Rach's blog catch up.

It warmed my heart and soul. It was so wonderful to see how much the Lord has blessed Rach for her faithfulness. And how much He's blessed her just because.

And it helped renew my own reassurance in Him.

I determined: I hope my readers are as uplifted by my blog posts.

So since it's been awhile, and it's always helpful for me to record His hand, here are some recent moments that attest to the goodness of God.

One of my dear friends was driving cross-country and so she stopped in with her cute family for the night. Some of my favorite moments included staying up way too late to just chat and catch up. I looovveed seeing how natural she was as a parent and the teamwork between her and her husband. (Even before they were dating, I always admired the companionable friendship they enjoyed.) It was easy to serve her low-maintenance, easy-tempered family and I'm grateful for her history-buff of a husband's good-humor and graciousness every time I had to answer his Omaha-related questions with "Let me look that up..."

The day before Laura's visit I got an unexpected text:
Nell: What are your 4th of July plans?
Me: Nothing.
Nell: The rest of the weekend?
Me: Nothing.
Nell: What's the forecast?
Me: (screen cast sent). What are you guys doing?
Nell: Maybe come visit you?
Me: Oh sure~! Come!
Nell: Want three little monkeys jumping on your bed?
Me: Yes please!!!!
I LOOOOVE family visits. And impromptu ones are the best! (The countdown is usually not so terribly long. *hehe*)

I was sitting in sacrament meeting, disappointed that instead of hearing these wonderful talks that testified of simple truths, my investigator friend kept having to excuse herself to tend to her two daughters. I reminded myself of the pep talk I got from two of my favorite college roommates and surrendered: trust the Holy Ghost, trust the Holy Ghost. She was still preoccupied by the second-hour, but instead, as I saw her in the nursery I realized: yes!!! This would be a great place for her to start!

I'm a big believer in self-development. And an even bigger believer when opportunities are free and help to pass the time at work. So I signed up for a two-day CPR/First Aid certifying course my university was sponsoring before the Independence Day holiday. The last time I was certified was before I was a nanny! So it was a great opportunity to brush up on things and revise updated practices. Particular highlights were:

  • An engaging instructor that made the three-hour class each day go by pretty quickly
  • Meeting more employees of BU and strengthening a camaraderie and a sense of belonging in my professional workplace 
  • Reminiscing on my young women summer camp days and realizing what a blessing it was that I'd already been introduced to a lot of first aid practices so it wasn't entirely overwhelming to cram a 12-week course into a 6-hour session
  • Feeling the ease and confidence that comes from being well-educated when it was time to take the test. 
  • Passed!
Before my next out-of-town visitors came, I wanted to make sure I got to the temple to finish up the family names NTP graciously provided. I got to do more work for Gramma Ah Moi's family! Not going to lie, they have a special place in my heart. (Call it the Spirit of Elijah, haha.) But it's especially tender for me when I can seal the children to their parents. Maybe because that's the only eternal relationship I have right now. Or maybe just because there's nothing that can compare to the relationship between goodly parents and their child. But I was touched doing the proxy work and it's always a good place to be when you're participating in the most important kind of work.

Now reflecting on the blessings I've received lately (see, this is why reflection is important!), another highlight of my temple visit was an opportunity to be like Mother Eve. I had what seemed to be two opposing "commandments." So I pondered it out. I prayed about it. And then I made a choice. (Now looking back, it was the "harder" choice.) But oh how God consecrated that choice! *insert a bursting heart of gratitude*

I thoroughly enjoyed having the Zempos visit! There were many tender mercies scattered throughout their trip. They made it in good time despite the scattered thunderstorms. They were able to join me for our cultural food exchange young women activity. We got to try yummy Mexican foods. I took them to some of my favorite restaurants too. They arrived just in time to help me get rid of the surplus of food I had before it went bad. Despite the forecasted rainy weather, we had more sun than rain. This allowed for (free) outdoor excursions and sight-seeing. Our Independence Day festivities were simple but satisfying. We got to squeeze in a movie date and temple date for Mama and Papa. I still made it to my investigator friend's baptism. Other ward members pitched in to help while I was hosting my family. We got to use up the over-riped bananas for Sunday morning banana pancakes. And they'll be back next week!   

A unique experience I've had since moving to Omaha has been being the "receiver" of visitors. (I feel like I've done a lot of driving so it's actually been kind of weird just hanging out in the comforts of my home waiting for the road trippers.) One kind of sad thing though, about having people, is when it's time for them to leave. You know that feeling when you've finally had to take down all your Christmas trimmings? Yeah, that's kind of how it feels... Thankfully, shortly after the Zempos departure, I finally caught my μ–Έλ‹ˆ and chatted with her for a bit. And I feel like she's doing much better! (If I can't get a hold of her after a long while and when I do she's grumpy, I know she's going cuckoo.)

I've been wrestling with trying to do what God wants me to do: feed His sheep and trying to do what I want to do: get fit and be debt free. And I can't seem to figure out how to do both... I even fasted about it for this month and I still don't feel like I've gotten clear direction. But one thing I have learned is that when all else fails, just make sure I'm doing what God wants me to do. And so I did. Without even really realizing it. I was able to crawl into bed last night feeling like I was on the Lord's errand the entire day. And it warmed my heart so much! I conducted a meeting at work where I tried to emulate the spirit of unity and goodwill (unfortunately, sentiments not as common as I'd wish here-people can get very territorial); I had a nice long visit with my coworker that I feel like is important to our working relationship; and I finally got to meet our ministering sister (with my very best ministering companion) and I feel like she felt the love of God (whether or not she realized it).

Right now I'm kind of in this weird (not bad-maybe surreal?) place where I feel greatly blessed but I can't quite see the direction I'm going/the direction I'm being led in. Like I said, not bad. But definitely requires more patience, more faith. So I'm especially grateful for reminders through my own life experiences or others that assure me that God is good. He's aware of me and my loved ones. And like so many times before, as I trust Him, He is leading.


I love sleeping...

...just about as much as I love being productive.

This past week has been my obligatory "personal leave" vacation. Initially I was bummed. It was so last minute I didn't have the time or budget to actually plan a vacation.

Thankfully, it has actually been quite the busy week! I tried to squeeze in as much nap time as possible since I haven't been sleeping well during the night. But I think my very busy days and restless nights caught up to me yesterday at my zumba class. I wasn't feeling so well.

I'm much better today. And in fact, today has been my best day yet! (The previous days were very busy, but I felt like I was juggling five millions things like a crazy lady. Today, I was able to strategically and methodically work on my to-do list, the way I usually like to.)

6:00a - wake up and prep for (last) class
6:30a - last class with my Korean students *tear*
7:00a - submit final report and timesheet
7:15a - head out to car wash (that includes carpet and mat automated cleaners!)
8:30a - finished (a much needed in and out since winter) cleaning car
9:00a - started working on cleaning my house (major cleaning including cleaning out fridge, sewing curtains, and rearranging furniture)
11:00a - start laundry
11:30a - shower (it felt amazing! I may or may not have gone to bed instead of bocha-ing after cleaning the chapel after my zumba class yesterday)
12:00p - head out to public library to print temple family name cards and try and figure out car insurance

So satisfied with all that I was able to accomplish!

Now tomorrow, I can enjoy going to the temple and getting some groceries before Laura and her family drive in.

It was an unexpected vacation, but I'm grateful for the time I've had to get chores and errands done and still have time to see friends, eat yummy food, serve and enjoy the simple joys of life!

(And I may have more visitors next week!)

Season of Solitude

When I thought I couldn't have any more down time, my boss informed me in my department meeting last week that I have five personal leave days I have to use by the end of the fiscal year (which ends in two weeks). Ha! *insert facepalm*

It was my bad because I didn't keep track of which benefits I can accrue and which I cannot. And don't get me wrong, this is nothing to complain about. But I just couldn't help but laugh at the irony of it all. When I thought I couldn't possibly have any more time to myself, I get a FULL week of pure vacation! And it's all. by. myself. (No trips planned, no guests coming.) Haha.

This past Saturday I came to terms with it and I've decided to embrace it. Really embrace it! And I'm actually looking forward to it.

As I told Rach, when I'm by myself, there's two things I don't do much of:

1. Eat.
2. Spend.

Ha!

But truly, I've come to see this as an answer to fasting and prayers. I have specific temporal goals for this summer and this season of solitude will help me get closer to reaching them.

(It's also helping me take advantage of the simple sweets of life. e.g. Pulling out my sofa couch bed and sprawling in my living room or setting up my projector for popcorn and a movie from the comforts of my bed!)

I've recently been feeling very overwhelmed by the state of this world. I am seeing at rapid rates the promises of the prophets that we truly are living in the last days. Everything from overhearing locker room conversations between tweens regarding their choice of sexual orientation (as if they were picking what to eat for dinner) or reading Greg Lukianoff and Jonathan Haidt's The Coddling of the American Mind and seeing the tragic trends of the world (manifested on US university campuses)...

I had a realization this weekend though! As evil increases, I simply need to increase my faith and power to surpass the Adversary and his work.

*Cue Boy Like Girls feat. Taylor Swift's Two is Better Than One* 😊

Sister Sheri Dew's It Is Not Good for Man or Woman to Be Alone came to mind:

"Neither man nor woman is perfect or complete without the other. Thus, no marriage or family, no ward or stake is likely to reach its full potential until husbands and wives, mothers and fathers, men and women work together in unity of purpose, respecting and relying upon each other’s strengths. ...

"The Lord’s pattern for couples and in large measure men and women serving together in His kingdom was established by our first parents. Together Adam and Eve labored, mourned, were obedient, had children, taught their posterity the gospel, called upon the name of the Lord, “heard the voice of the Lord,” blessed the name of God, and dedicated themselves to God. Repeatedly the scriptures about Adam and Eve refer to the pronoun they

"This divine pattern for men and women that strengthens marriages and families also fortifies the Church. For the Church cannot achieve the full measure of its creation unless both faithful men who bear the priesthood and righteous women who rejoice in serving under the direction of the priesthood work together. ...

"Recent devastating events in the United States seem to indicate difficult days ahead. But they are days that will be filled with confidence and courage if the men and women of your generation unite in righteousness as never before. There is no limit to what you can accomplish if you will work together, equally yoked, under the guidance of the priesthood."

One of the most important things I've recently learned about myself is that while I may often see the big picture or end goal, it is through the small and simple steps now that I get there. I can see that I'm wrapping up all the growth and progress I could make on my own. The next installment is shortly due.

But I have these last few chapters to finish writing. And this season of solitude is the time I can do it.

I'm very excited!

Spark of Inspiration's Progress

I still LOVE the idea of selling my condo for a profit and paying off debt. I'm banking on it frankly. (No pun intended. *Hehe*)

But I have commitments here at least through the summer. I've signed up to host college students from Hong Kong right before the semester starts. And I want to take advantage of the solid three months of focusing on physical fitness.

I figure since I'll already be missing the start of Fall semester abroad, might as well stay till at least I make my one year at BU. (Which will also give me time to meet up with my ν†΅μ˜ μ›Œλ“œμ–Έλ‹ˆ and hopefully meet NiΓ±a Zempo.)

After that, we'll see.

So, continuing on my trail of YMCA. Looking forward to hosting my people for a few weeks. And hoping that the end of this road is a sold condo and paid off debt.

Then we'll see what options present itself!

Living

The OCD part of me doesn't like these big gaps between journal posts. But I realized yesterday that since so much of this season of my l...