Thankfully I was blessed with a very kind co-teacher who has patiently assisted me in all this paperwork.
However, I just found out that the document she sent and I submitted to my accountant was from 2017. So my taxes haven't been filed yet (tax return! 🤞) and I have to contact her yet again for assistance (I feel even more shame because not only is co-teaching kind of a cumbersome responsibility for Korean teachers and it's been a year since I was her co-teacher, but I also needed a lot of her help for collecting documents to apply for my mortgage last fall. 🤦)
Opposition.
Once again though, this feels right.
I think one of my struggles was that I was learning the principles of agency, and opposition, and creative problem solving, and submission, and faith, and gratitude, and persistence, and diligence, but instead of feeling progress when I tried to apply them, I kept feeling a wall. A very big wall.
This time though, it feels right. It's flowing. Or falling really--falling into place as my life so easily does when it's "right." I'm now certain in how to use my agency. I know which prayers to offer. I can identify the opposition as simply resistance. The things that are supposed to be falling are, and I'm not so easily discouraged when I have to pull out my creative problem solving and diligence when they aren't. I feel confident. I feel undeterred. I feel grounded. I feel hopeful.
It's a nice place to be!
Such a difference in perspective and attitude compared to a few weeks ago!!
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